Friday, August 2, 2013
A New Year, A New Attitude
2013 has brought a yearning in me. I want to enjoy my life again. I want to smile genuinely, look forward to something, feel contentment, and be at ease. The trouble is that I have forgotten how to do these things. I have been so unhappy for so long that everything is a burden, my worries overwhelm me and, though I am lonely as hell, I want to be left alone.
A voice inside me tells me that it is a hopeful sign that I want things to be different.
Since I don't know how to get to the place I would rather be, I have decided to just journey and hope I wind up there. My journey is going to be reading all that I can on changing my outlook, healing my wounds, forgiving those who have hurt me, finding my faith in God again, and moving toward my goals. At this time I cannot afford a therapist, so I will cull the Internet for articles, quotes, prayers and advice and use this forum to comment, journal, and hopefully, grow.
I have to believe that moving forward has got to take me away from where I stand now. Baby steps are better than no steps at all. I just can't remain where I am right now.
Posted by Jan B Yeprat at 9:10 PM